>>20127760not really, more like tired. If anything I'm surprised i can still enjoy stuff. Like idk, her streams, playing vidya games or reading books at glacial pace of 10 pages a day or handing out with friends every other Sunday. I am in similar situation to Rose where I have an office job + 2-3 hour/day side gig I do 5-6 times a week, basically a basic bitch outreach marketing stuff for friend's company. The difference is that I've been doing that for 2.5 year so I'm pretty fucking drained but that's kinda necessary sacrifice I've made to save up money. If anything I'm hopeful for the future and think the worst stuff in my life is behind me. I just don't say that out loud to avoid tempting fate to show me I'm wrong.