>>16008839>she cried last year she said something about not losing the next tournamentat that moment, it was just a real cope mechanism, she lost her confidence, so subconciously she needs to grab on to some made up hope, to not get her heart more shattered or get traumatizaed, you may kek all you want but this is true.
And then during the year she identified that her own attitude and dependence to success and results, takes more than it gives, thats why she is more lax now, if she doesnt have to push texpectaions on herself, she wont suffer the dissapointment if she fails
