>>70238396Please don't be parasocial. It ruins your life when it all goes horribly wrong. I used to think it would never happen to me and I got suckered into it.
It did with me and a small indie. it fell apart real bad and they called me out over it. I couldn't take it any more and self destructed over it all. I ruined my life on the internet over one person.
I'm still extremely depressed every day. I don't go anywhere, my head hurts so much, I watch a few minutes of a vtuber before changing tab because they don't deserve me as a fan.
Everyone who used to talk to me won't do so any more. I struggle to watch vtubers these days because I don't want to fall down the same hole. I have nothing else to move onto so I'm stuck.
If you don't want to have your hobbies absolutely wrecked over heavy guilt and nothing but isolation, don't get close to your oshis, don't throw them your money either.
