good afternoon!
i seen a few little statements and heard some too and thought it would be proper to make a proper final statement. (which i hope someone can post because im friggin banned again like a dumb)
ive thought a few times if i should have come back but i do believe it's just living in the past. a lot of us do that you know? i know a lot of you do too. despite being stuck in the past, i know it was bad if i tried. the idea of streaming again as this life felt like my was running 75 marathons. i felt gross for lack of better words.
on top of that, with health slowly going bad, it started to take a toll mentally and physically. i know if i said anything though i would become too attached to leave again like before.
when i first started streaming, i think i really only did it to distract myself from the reality of this world. theres a lot of bad in this world and there always was and will be. but when we all first started to meet, it changed my entire perspective. growing up my only idea of what i needed in life was "get our of poverty, make a lot of money" but now i know what to do to make me happy. it still stings and feels really sad to think of being gone but i finally know because of you all.
when we first met i told you all i think fate will always lead people who belong together back again. when we meet again please give me lots of happy stories. please do your best to fin your happiness and we can meet again in the dead of night again away from the world.
i promise we will meet again because fate is really strange.
so please wait for me for the day i can come back healthy and smile to you all again.
i'll be waiting for you. lets meet for now in our dreams
https://youtu.be/APzYBz8V7gA?t=91 