>>45279520Patpat anon, I guess I don't really have any comforting words to offer but I know how you feel, it can be easy to not feel like "enough" of a fan when there are so many people in the community doing amazing things and casually donating more money than you've ever seen in your life. I've mostly come to terms with knowing I'll never be able to convey to my oshi how much he really means to me (if I could even put it into words) by seeing him as something larger-than-life, an unreachable star glittering in the sky even if in reality he's just some dude. At least if you contribute in little ways, even if that's just leaving comments on vods or liking his tweets you're still part of the audience he appreciates and is grateful for even if he doesn't know you by name.
