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>I've had a hard time getting through many days of my life
>but just finding those little things that are just enough to keep you going until the end of the day, then that's the finish line
>try to find that little thing in every day that's just kind of like "okay, you know what, waking up today is worth it"
>if you're just like "I don't know if I can do another week of this, I'm struggling so much with everything going on right now, but there's that new episode on friday... so I'm going to try hard to get through this week and maybe next week will be a bit better"
>that's how I got through a lot of heavy parts of my life
>and that's something that can just be like "okay, if... I go 'somewhere'... then I'm not going to be able to do those things"
>one of my favorite streamers of all time was a guy called etika... he had some dark things that he was dealing with... he unfortunately ended up passing away...
>I don't want to say the word
>one of the last things he ever said was when he posted a video is just things that he was sad he wasn't going to be able to do, and that just broke me
>I sometimes just think... if he just... if things hadn't ended up the way they did, if he was just able to find something that was enough to make him not want to make the choice that he did... there would be so many amazing things that he would have gotten to experience, but it's one of those things that we will never find out now
>so that's why I try to remember what etika said and use that a little bit for myself
>just like hey, I do like these things, I like these things a lot, I love these things, but if I... go 'somewhere'... then I'm never going to be able to experience those things again
>those are just my... my reasons to keep going
>sorry that this was such an extended little yap session about this thing
>it's just been on my mind while I've been off, and you know, being stressed and being alone with your thoughts, sometimes they're not the most happy...
>but it's okay