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Based on a lot of things and prompted by yesterday zatsu, I think Lumi is getting pretty depressed. Maybe not in a clinical way, but she's a bit unhappy now and stuck in an apathy loop.
There isn't really a clip I could provide, it's just a bunch of remarks said over 2 hours of zatsu. But a lot of stuff about how she can't get into things, because she ultimately doesn't care and is indifferent to everything.
Isn't happy with the EP primarily because she feels like it wasn't enough effort. I think she wanted to really care and get obsessed with it, but instead it was fairly "effortless".
She was mentioning how some indie bands talk about how they spent a year working 24/7 on something and she wants that. Wants to have to fight her parents about wanting to be a musician and not being allowed to.
I think she's not adhd or autistic and is sad she can't get autistic about some dumb interest, which is why she always gets really excited about planes despite knowing literally nothing. It's not a "pickme" fake behavior for autistic planefuckers in the audience, it's trying to force herself to get into planes. This applies to several things she's supposedly really into but has no knowledge about.
She was hoping making the EP would be her obsession, but it wasn't and now that it's done, she's succeeded at a long time goal with no tangible change. Success is a lot like revenge and battle passes, it can ultimately feel empty to achieve it, especially if you are hoping it fixes another problem.
She's apathetic, which makes her not interested in stuff, which makes her more apathetic/depressed because being interested in something is what she wants. It's a self feeding loop that makes her worse and worse. May she smile again soon
