>>46749844>it is better to die loving kiki than to live loving nobody at all.Maybe don't use that logic too much. That's one of those things that pushed me over the suicide edge over a decade ago. You can stew in despair for a long long time and never actually try to kill yourself, but there is a threshold that's like
>this thing makes me happy>unbelievably happy and warm and calm and peaceful>I should kill myself right now so that the last thing I think about is the thing that makes me happy 