>>86935232While you're right about that, you can only go so far in the spiritual landscape with that approach. It's like using drugs and/or alcohol to write songs or make paintings. Eventually, you'll find yourself in a dead end, with that crutch (substances) no longer viable... or something like that.
While I thrived and enjoyed making the poems, I ended up using Taffy as a crutch. I got fixated on her. I got too addicted to her. It got to the point where I needed to hear her more and more. I got scared of losing her as my source of inspiration, not just for poems, but as validation for parts of my life as well.
I kinda burned myself out now because of that. Now I'm trying to detach myself from her so I can see her in a more sober and balanced manner... although I may just detach completely, I don't know for sure.
Sigh... she's probably gonna read this...
