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Breakdown 1:
>playing Apex with bonbon, fun stream
>suddenly get messaged by Gorilla they're looking for another team for their tournament
>she agrees out of pride, although you can see her suddenly get really nervous
>the tournament happens, she gets completely shit on
>starts getting more and more anxious, the laughing stopped
>getting angry and frustrated with BonBon because he's a worse player than her, ordering him around and frustrated he doesn't listen
>has something of a mental breakdown, the mood completely changed, people watching are genuinely worried about her.
Breakdown 2:
>enters another tournament, gets teamed up with BonBon because they get along well in the past
>this time BonBon promises to follow her instructions
>get completely shit on again, can barely even kill a single person and get wiped every time
>once again, the mood goes cold
>no more laughing, quiet angst and brooding anger
>Bonbon wants to switch characters to his main, she gets extremely angry and they fight on stream
>by the end, stress levels are at maximum
>BonBon has a crying breakdown on stream, openly sobbing (blames it on kidney stones)
>Selen and Bonbon's relationship is permanently damaged
Breakdown 3:
>Challenges the other NijiEN girls to a "kill race", expecting to win easily
>they turn out to be much better players than she anticipated
>start racking up kills while she is getting wiped out instantly
>slowly dawns on her she's going to lose
>Finana sniping like a god, Elira proficiently wiping entire teams
>Selen suffers a complete mental breakdown, once again the laughing stops and she grows cold
>starts making excuses, Elira just chuckles a bit at her the whole time
>later Selen clipped the vod to remove the menhera rant, but it's still in Elira's vod
Breakdown 4:
>wants to play MGR to impress Pomu
>gamer girl can play on normal mode no problem right?
>she sucked, she sucked really bad
>couldn't even beat the tutorial miniboss
>chat is telling her she sucks, she goes menhera
>stops the game, plays every single tutorial while badmouthing chat
>viewers plummet and never bounce back
>somewhat recovers by the end of the stream, but still a painful experience
>says she won't play any more Metal Gear games cursing "backseaters"
Breakdown 5:
>collab with RPR and some other guy
>shitting the bed
>RPR and the other dude keep bantering about her choking
>Selen ends the collab early saying she doesn't feel well and can't perform
Breakdown 6:
>playing in Vsaikyo with Axel and Altare from Tempus after Axel invited her
>they do alright in practice/scrims
>on the day of the tournament they do well in game 1 but then they fuck up in the next 3 games
>Still top 10 overall despite everything that happened by the end of game 4
>Selen tilted off the face of the earth in game 4 and went for a walk
>comes back for start of game 5, still tilted, and proposed they should just play for fun instead of playing to win
>"i just want to shoot my guns"
>Axel still wants to play to win to at least secure a half decent placement
>the coach sides with Selen and suggests they just play for fun
>they try to 4fun it
>they're the first team to die in game 5
>it tanks their overall placement and they finish the tournament in a humiliating 17th place out of 20 teams
>Selen goes radio silent for several days before releasing a statement on twitter giving excuses for her poor performance and saying that all the coaches agreed that she was in the right
