>>84799916for my entire life I have always been viscerally uncomfortable with boys/men making gay jokes and 'bantering' about being gay with each other, even being touched by other males makes me recoil (I never hugged my dad as a child, for example), I have never had male role models/men who I idolize and want to be like and the concept of this seems bizarre to me, when men at work try to banter with me and act crude I just don't know what to say and just want to get out of there immediately
the idea of having any kind of 'closeness' (physically and emotionally) to another male in any capacity makes me feel ill like as if I am being violated somehow
yes I have basically no male friends, the 'friendships' I have with my one or two male friends is completely superficial and surface level
This is why I watch Hololive
