>>102037256looking for an oshi to call my own after I was scorned by my last one... watching different girls and trying to find one that's right
not naming any names but:
first oshi graduated and went to hololive (no it wasn't poya)
second oshi just left. She's reincarnated several times, but I'm too afraid to say "remember me from 5 years ago? we talked a bit in discord"
third oshi is still active, but she's changed dramatically. No longer entertaining, now she's genuinely obsessed with american politics despite not being american
another oshi I had I just fell out of her after a yab she had. Even if it turned out to be a made up rrat, the community are mostly gone. Also I'm not a fan of her new model
and the oshi I had up until just recently I made a grave error and purposely distanced myself from her community. It was small so hiding it isn't really an option. Maybe they'd forgive me or just not care or perhaps even not even know it happened, but I would know and it'd eat away at me
so here I am trying to find someone to help with the crushing loneliness I feel
