Just because I’m smiling as if nothing bothers me,
Do you think I’ve forgotten everything that happened that day?
Even though you may forget about it right after hurting someone,
The one you hurt won’t ever forget it.
And then some day, it will burn a hole in my mind, and the black, stagnant water will start building up.
For instance, if you wish, I can disassemble my whole body for you,
Be it my arms, my legs, my hair, my tongue, my chest, my ears, my nose, my fingers,
Or even my heart–I’ll do a thorough job of it.
But what I wanted the most in this world, more than anything else,
Was broken into pieces and turned into ash just by a single word from you.
Kind of sad, considering that it was all I ever needed.
All right.
I shall dance until the day breaks, until I fall asleep with exhaustion,
Because my heart won’t ever reach yours, in any case.
Desperate for love, I force a smile. I wish to dream, but insomnia is my sole companion.
I’m not exactly sad about anything, though.
Don’t you think so, too?
“Supposing that there are two kinds of humans living in this world,
One is those who are needed, and the other is those who aren’t.
My confidence in being the former is already infinitesimally close to zero,
So I tried to become someone who would be needed by just one person, at least.”
But even that doesn’t work out very well.
That’s right.
Again and again, rewriting everything over and over again.
It’s already so messed up, so wrecked up that I feel disgusted just looking at it.
Even so, I will drag my heart along as I continue walking on,
Because there is no possible replacement.
Don’t you think so, too?
What a cruel world we live in.
Everyone yearns for happiness
And keeps on dancing
An eternal waltz full of contradictions.
All right.
I shall dance until the day breaks, until I fall asleep with exhaustion,
Because my heart won’t ever reach yours, in any case.
Desperate for love, I force a smile. I wish to dream, but insomnia is my sole companion.
I’m not exactly sad about anything, though.
And yet, for some reason, my tears still fall.
Please, tell me why.
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