>>45928213Partially. She's always been anxious about keeping her fans happy and after the donothon it elevated to an extreme. She wants to be popular, but can't handle the expectations. Seeing the others grow at a greater pace makes her happy for them, but also makes her wonder what she's doing wrong. She loves the support, but feels like it isn't deserved. idol's carried her into the deep end before she can properly learn to swim. You can only paddle along with your head bobbing above the water for so long.
When you're under a lot of stress and anxiety you want a safe place to retreat inside. Her PL is familiar, like a small warm home perfect for a worm.
