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But seriously. I'm an apprehensive person who was left with major trust issues towards women right before I found Hololive. It took me months to even subscribe let alone donate, and I've done reps and reps and more reps to the point where I no longer need to translate those matome sites to read them
Everything I've found and everything I've heard and everything she's done...I've tried over and over again to see if somehow this is all just the most elaborate fake-out ever, but...at some point, I had to admit that I was desperately trying to prove it wrong because I was terrified of the fact that I wanted her to really love her Fandead like she says she does, even though it was staring me in the face the entire time.
There was no reason for Rushia to post some of things she did on a locked account after cleaning out most of the post-Rushia accounts. She had nothing to gain. She deleted them within minutes. That some of those messages like about how she'll marry a fan because they're the people that truly love her escaped was a miracle to 5ch and this board was a downright miracle and definitely not something you could realistically expect.
Rushia is just...who she is. Every time somebody tells her they love her on the internet, she believes it, straight out. Every time somebody who said that to her pulls away, it hurts her. And it's like she never gets used to it. It's as raw the 1000th time as it is the first for her.
Do you know, for example, the few times Rushia has broken a yandere bit? When the bit got a little too violent. When it hits her that what she's pretending to do would really hurt her Fandead, she will drop the skit in a panic and start apologizing and repeating "I don't want to hurt you" to the chat. She begs for people to trust her. She is completely fine with and even has gone on public record before to defend her own stalkers as long as they aren't trying to cause harm but instead are just obsessive.
She desperately wants to make us feel loved and for us to love her
I've looked for 2 years and I can say, honestly, that nothing about her has ever conflicted with this interpretation about her. Not even the infamous clips- because what ELSE do you think an easily manipulated and inexperienced girl would do when she's alone with a predator online?
I love posts showing how much people love Rushia!
