>>79432216Same...
No idea how others can just... be normal or functional. And every year after my birthday I tell myself that this is my year, only for 8 months to pass and see no difference from 5 years ago.
I've come to the conclusion that practicing gratitude and trying to find joy in simpler things, like cooking delicious, well flavored chicken breast can be rewarding, and I guess despite despite the un/fa/shionable genetics I'm still healthy and able bodied.
>suffering, brooding and trying to escape the pain and the need to grow up while other people got to experience things only the young can experienceThis falls into "what ifs". Try to reason every time you think about how your life could've been so different that this scenario is an unsolvable problem (our brains and species is literally built to solve problems, got us where we are) and that you're wasting your energy.
Maybe this is the blind leading the blind, but it kinda works, in a sort of me letting you know about a wall by hitting it first.
And remember, it's only truly over for the dead.
