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thinking about better days
i feel bad when i look at myself presently and i'm just a bum who seems to float around aimlessly from idea to idea where even something that makes me feel good will get dropped the moment something distracts me, but today i thought about kyary pamyu pamyu and remembered how much better and more passionate I was about my interests and my art when I first discovered her
these days, i'm in an even better position to pursue the things I like than I was before but I still feel so fake with how quickly I seem to pick up and drop things, all my knowledge about anything is surface level, and god I wouldn't even be able to name any kyary song, but it stings and I cry whenever I hear one of them again just because it's a memory of better days as a creative. my life feels too ethereal and I barely have anything anchoring me down, even my goals feel like they change every month. maybe covid really did ruin my brain like it did for other people
I'm pretty sure I still want to be an idol but at least for today, I want to hold on to that feeling as much as I can.
