>>105609313 (me)Gigi in a tanktop kinda sexy tho
I ran away from home in hs and got my own place. I used to play Cleaning Out My Closet on repeat then. Parents visit me once and got in a bad argument over water spots on my mirror. Barely talked after. At some point my mom disappeared, leaving my dad with early dementia. I visit him 3 times a week but it's hard to listen to his bullshit. But when he forgets how old I am, I see my dad from little. I miss my parents so fucking bad. Then I found Gigi. Some silly vtuber shit to watch in between streaming subscriptions. Here coping for a year watching her with knowing scoffs at talks of gigimama shenanigans. Then this song drops after a fun BD stream. The 'orisong so cute' smile faded when I listened back. We truly don't choose our oshi's. I cried grems. I want to go home and explain video games to my mom. I want to go hiking and watch birds with my dad. I'm scared of making another human feel this way. I see someone infrequently but I don't want to move in or have kids. But Gigi gives me hope, hope that I don't deserve. I wish her happiness, knowing that she wishes it back for us too. She makes me want to try. Grems, talk to your parents and understand them. If you can't find them, talk to the clouds if you must. You don't have to say I love you if they were unkind, but just be real with them. If you can thank them, do it. Be proud of what you make of the life you've been given. Be whimsy; change da world.>>105657972Using them to dry my tears. Bless you spats grem.
