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I wake up once again in the middle of the night,
My eyes starting to adjust in the dim moonlight.
I am surrounded by the dark, but it feels so bright.
I'm deep in the red, and I can't do anything right.
I stand up, quickly running into the stock exchange market.
I see my former associates, and our eyes briefly meet.
In a panic, my face goes pale white, and I begin to sweat;
My chest tightens, and my heart starts to fill with guilt and regret.
My lungs start to constrict and my airways choke, I cannot breathe.
They do not recognize me; my eyes begin to swell with tears,
Something inside me begins to crack, it fades and disappears.
We aren't the same people, our paths diverged.
My heavy heart sinks and starts to submerge.
As I stand in a daze, the clockwork chimes.
My inner mind is a maze; the crow cries.
My heart corrupted; my emotion dies.
It's all fabricated, a web of lies.
The void swallows my mind, my heart astray.
I threw it all away, I made mistakes that day.
I'll never get it all back, no matter how hard I pray.
This awful isolation is the fuel of my dread,
It's impossible to return, the world I knew is dead.
My future grey,
Mind in decay,
I watched my life crumble away.
Ever since I fell from grace
I had lost the space to call mine,
I want to get back to that place
But I am way past my prime.
I fell off from the race,
I'm running out of time.
I continue to reminisce about the past,
Thinking about the wealth I had amassed.
Not the kind of wealth that was tangible,
But relationships that were invaluable.
I had riches unimaginable,
But the way I ended up is quite laughable.
My story is not one that ended up happy,
In fact, looking back, my biography’s kind of crappy.
I got everything in life and threw it away,
My own soul did my mind betray.
I never knew my story would end up this way.
I did not even get to bid farewell to them,
And for my actions, I had been condemned.
I can feel those judgemental eyes looking at me.
Trapped in this cage of guilt, I will never be free.
In this hell, I can hear the sound of a timepiece ticking,
I'm filled with regret and guilt, like water over spilling.
On the verge of exploding, a bottle of lies,
I am slowly filled to the brim; I fear for my demise.
My vision blurry as my hopes vanish,
The more I think, the more I am in anguish.
Memories of the past start to diminish,
Our story didn't last, and our chapter is finished.
