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Everywhere I go I'm surrounded by soulless golems. NPC's scripted to think and act a certain way.
I swear I'm the only sentient human that exists. I know all of the mysteries of this world. I know the meaning of life. I know our purpose. I have been gifted abundant knowledge and yet who do I have to share this knowledge with? I'm trapped with bots that don't even have an internal monologue. Programs that cannot even visualize a realistic apple in their minds. Fiends that cannot conceptualize sound and tactile feelings in their mind. Creatures that cannot imagine biting into a lemon and tasting its overwhelming sourness which causes your face to scrunch as if you really had bitten into one.
Imagine, if you will, being given the world but having your motivation set to 0. You have all of the tools at your disposal to be great but you can never realize it.
Instead you have to look on as those that are inferior to you in all ways succeed because they took the leap of faith which you can never take.
There's a lesson to be taught here but right now I'm too bitter to see it. Or perhaps not, maybe I do see it but willfully ignore it because I can't see past my pride.
Everything I have ever actually applied for I have attained because everything is within my grasp.
Now I don't apply for anything, and thus I don't get, then I seethe over not getting that which nobody has any idea I actually want because I made no effort to get it, but such is life when motivation is 0. Imagine having everything snatched away from you for one flaw which from the outset seems relatively minor in scope, yet it's depth escapes all of you but it doesn't escape me. I am a prisoner of it, and it is my captor.
