>>19368522thanks for your input, I'm not sure how much you watched but must have been quite a bit and I'm glad. also i apologize for upsetting you, which is totally understandable you feel that way. I did show a mock-up of a male model (picrel). The one I'm currently using is just very comforting to me.
To address the therapy and negativity. I get that I'm not normal and probably could benefit from therapy but at the same time i feel like it won't do anything. I won't bore you with monologuing but i fully agree that this focusing on myself creates a lot of issues and turns me into an annoying person. I should focus on making others happy, nobody wants to listen to someone being sad forever. I thought maybe in a world where everyone is so positive some counterweight would help but maybe i was wrong. This was a one-off stream and I'm sure I won't do it again. If i continue streaming I'll do my best to clean up my act internally and "on-stage". Focusing on becoming a better person...
