>>17375276I think perhaps you think too low of yourself or you grew up in an environment where you were constantly being put down; had little opportunity for advancement and were bullied? I can assure you're a capable person and human being anon, forget your problems and put them behind for once.
I can't speak for much more because I don't know you at all so there's my assessment.
Try to always remember if you want to be abused you will be abused and you will only sink deeper and deeper. Don't fall for cycle.
Reach out for new heights, I believe in you.