>>30383264Now that you've had an epiphany it's your first step into improvement, actually. Good job
Now that you are disgusted with what you realized, picture this: what if your oshi suddenly was there and saw this situation you've seen? She'd be disgusted right?
You can become a man your oshi wouldn't be disgusted about. If you work on improving yourself maybe she'd even find you acceptable, or somewhat cool. Become the kind of man your oshi would find acceptable, anon