>>104235734You are convincing yourself that you are making more people happy, which may appear to be the case at first glance. In reality, you have put a lot of effort into giving a minority of your fans the opportunity to experience a new level of intimacy with yourself, i.e. eating food that you've made, at the expense of everyone else who would not get such an opportunity at all or not as easily. This inequality is created purely on your whim, is not necessitated by vtuber culture, and, since the source of increased intimacy with a fraction of your fanbase is your personal decision, this action is in contradiction to your stated goal of making everyone happy, because it makes many more people jealous.
If we extend your implied reasoning further, then getting a desirable husband irl should make the sum total of happiness increase, as that one guy would become very happy and others can just tank it. Needless to say that's wrong, because it stands in opposition to your current ideals of equality of opportunity, and so that would make everyone else very unhappy except maybe a few antis.
In short, what you are doing is disenchanting people about your idol flair. Is that your true goal?
You implied that potential jealousy is not a big deal compared to what you are going through, which is true. However, this concern is still important even if it's not the biggest one as it lines up with certain other issues that combine into a worrying trend, and you don't know what some of us are already going through while not being treated with reduced expectations, lacking a massive support network, or not getting a cuteness discount.
As reasoned above, your jab about not getting cookies being someone's biggest concern is very callous and stands in stark contrast to the compassion you used to express during many a zatsu. From what I understand, compassion momentarily has been wrung dry from you by grief and adversities, and, since getting at least some of us to try your homemade baking has been a little dream project of yours, achieving it will give you a small boost of happiness, which at the moment you are putting above the discontent that such an action causes.
Right now your happiness is a mutual priority, but it's important to get the message across before more damage is done, or one day you'll find your actions so far divorced from your stated reasoning that you might end up as an example of behaviour you despise so much. If you can't be entirely honest about the main beneficiary of your actions then maybe such actions shouldn't be taken.
