https://warosu.org/vt/thread/61733294#p61736008I tried to tell them, they didn't believe me, again.
Haachama has been acting like the self-deprecating crazy character for stream entertainment since forever, and this has cultivated an audience who likes her for that character. While I like that character, personally, my intrique and concern came from her trauma past which I related to, especially the feeling of isolation and disconnect from others when you lack normal childhood and adolescence. The parts of her telling stories about Philippines prison-like school and such, to me felt like cry for help disguised as a funny story, because it's difficult for her to express the genuine grief part because as an entertainer everything must be a joke and fun.
Basically, her past (which she has always been consistent about) is clearly full of traumatic experiences and the schizo arcs were always real, in the sense that it was based on her genuine self-expression, even though crafted into a commercial stream experience.
Whenever I've expressed genuine concern, I was shut down by people saying it was just acting. The EN community making fun of her English is basically a running gag, it's mildly funny but becomes excessive when they don't have any other way to engage with her. I was always a bit uncomfortable with it, but I didn't know what to do about it. Unless she's actually crying, nobody hears the pain behind her experiences, and when she does, haatons default to pacifying her with cheap platitudes. I think this drives away genuinely empathic people from her viewerbase, making things worse. This is why people who care, leave and only come back when she has a breakdown, because it's too painful to watch the unhealthy dynamic unfold on the daily.
In short, Haachama is a deeply troubled girl who uses her real distress as circus entertainment, and she does it because she has always done this and has nothing else good going on.
Also, this next part is kind of a personal rant, but psychiatry and mental wards are actually the most immoral, worst crime against humanity. Mental wards exist to help "normal" people feel good by controlling the lives of people whose feelings they are afraid of and don't understand, while giving the illusion that their targets of obsession are given good care. I've basically never heard anyone having a good experience being forcibly imprisoned and drugged with permanently brain-altering chemicals that are certainly not safe nor effective. (1/2)
