>>101799442I'm taking her at her word for some of these/interpreting things she said, so if it's all an act I guess she acts mentally ill, not is, but among some of the things that stick out to me are her insane executive dysfunction when it comes to seemingly everything in her life that isn't streaming. She constantly talks about not doing things she knows she should (other than streaming) and then calls herself lazy/stupid/schizo for not doing them, which reeks of the typical fracked self image that comes from untreated ADHD. Beyond that her self image just generally seems.... bad. I don't want to write out a billion reasons for I think so, but if you're curious I'll elaborate.
Another thing is that she genuinely seems to have trouble trusting people/being intimate, especially physically. On this I have to take her for her word, but in that QnA thing from 2023 she said she is still a kiss virgin and then remarked she can't even bring herself to hug people because she's genuinely scared of that kind of intimacy. Similarly she mentioned not even telling her family or irls about what she does saying she "doesn't have anyone she super duper trusts like that". Maybe this got better though over time, but she seems like an incredibly walled off, anxious person the ways she speaks about these things.
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>>101799806 she's not actually schizo or anti social or any other "menhara" way me thinks, not at all, but I am more and more convinced she's genuinely autistic and that comes with all sorrts of baggage itself. She's also made some fringe comments here and there that lowkey made me think she was or considered herself depressed before streaming took off and dominated her life, but those are nothing but stray thoughts even I half dismiss and keep in the back of my mind.
