>>102496994Not that anyone cares but I just wanna get this off my chest.
I'm not a s/napling, I was (and am) subbed to her now but I barely tap into her streams. I'm not really parasocial to her, I don't think of her as my gf, I never bought a SC aside from her goodbye stream to show my gratitude, but I've always found her to be comforting. It's nice to hear her voice and watch her have fun with games. Her cuteness, jokes and demeanor are still really charming to me, it's just a feel-good vibe to have around. (Nothing past that though.)
Yet, when I read the announcement, aside from of course feeling super dumbfounded because it's the last thing I'd ever expect to read today let alone being posted by her, I felt an inmense amount of emptiness, dread, and thoughts racing through my head among the likes of "oh my god she had a bf this entire time". Just stuff that made me uncomfortable to think about. And then I scroll down and read all the comments being genuinely happy and supportive, even from people that I thought would feel at least a little bit conflicted like I did. (Not that they'd write that below her announcement, but yknow, any semblance of it in their profiles)
And it made me feel like I was the problem. I'm no incel, nor was I "in love" with her, so shouldn't unbridled happiness be what I SHOULD be feeling? It's a genuinely happy announcement and situation for her! But I didn't feel happy right away. Sure after giving it a bit of thought I'm getting over that and I'm glad for her. But if I'm not that attached to her, why did I still feel like this???
