>>102717377I used to think that unicorns are fucking retarded, and still do btw, especially the ones who turn into antis when reality smites them
I thought I wouldn't care like that
But when she dropped that tweet out of the blue, my heart sank
Now, its been obvious from her past slip ups that shes dating someone
But there always existed that plausible deniability when she didn't out right confirm it
And lets be real here for a second, shes the normal one and hasn't actually done anything wrong
She did try to set boundaries, as far as cover allowed her
There are vtubers and other content creators I follow that are married or dating and I could care less
But this felt different for some reason
I didn't even realize I caught feelings
The logical part of my brain is telling me that I should be happy for her
She doesn't even know I exist and I know that in no universe I would be the one
I was content with the delusion
Why did she have to post it on main, that completely destroyed the illusion
If she posted it on some alt or something and kept the vtuber persona separate, I think it would've been fine
I just want to go back watching cute anime girl doing silly things
Why does it feel so cruel, I knew
Every time someone mentions it or congratulates her it hurts again
Even I congratulated her under that tweet, smiling through the pain
Will this feeling ever pass, I've been thinking about it all day everyday since that tweet
I don't hate her and I do wish I can someday go back to enjoying her streams
Sorry for rambling, maybe this helps me get over it
