>On the last day when like, everyone was leaving. I was pretty down, because like even though I had a lot of fun recording and stuff. But um, obviously, and I had a lot of fun hanging out with the girls obviously, but um on the last day I was like, really upset because- I don't know it sounds kind of stupid because I did it to myself. But the night before I... the night before was like the last day of um, practicing and stuff and... rehearsing and... I... like cried myself to sleep. Not because it was like "no it's all over" but because it was, um, realizing throughout the day that like, I don't think I fit in...? I guess? Or like, I dunno, it's not a crazy realization to have especially when you have such anxiety and by default you're not good at talking to people but it's like, I dunno...
>Ashton was like so good at talking and interacting that it was like setting in how I had a lot of thoughts about like how... I wasn't, my place in the lineup was not the important? I guess? And how I dunno, I didn't feel like I measured up to them, basically. And...yeah. And I guess I overthought a bunch of stuff. And then the next day, when I was waiting for my ride, um, in the hotel lobby.
>Nimi actually came downstairs and I guess she was like getting breakfast or something, and then she saw me and just like sat with me. And I... didn't tell her any of this, I never told her any of this stuff, so this is the first time I'm talking about it. But she like, sat with me and like, chatted with me until my ride arrived, which was like, maybe 30 minutes? And it wasn't about like, it wasn't about like how I felt because I didn't actually tell her any of that, but it was just like general chatting.
>Like oh, how's school? And....I was like asking for advice on ASMR and stuff and like I dunno, she doesn't know but...when she sat- when she just talked to me you know? She didn't need to. It meant a lot to me, and it made me feel a lot better about everything. Even though she had no real obligation to stay in the lobby with me, yeah... Even when she like, first messaged me when we first started talking about virtual vacation she was like "Hi I'm Nimi, I'm so excited to perform with you in LA!" I was like "what?!" Like going into this I was first expecting to be, not recognized because that's just how things go. That's why...yeah...
>"She's a sweetheart?" Yeah!
>Just talking about random stuff made me forget about all the stuff I was crying over.
