You're all here for a reason, and I have something I would like to discuss today. As you might have seen, I will be graduating from NijiEN on August 29th, JST. This may have been the hardest decision of my life, but it's been something that I have been thinking about for a while now.
For various obvious reasons I will not be able to share entirely what made me arrive to this decision, but I would like you to know that there are very important reasons to me on why I came to this conclusion. The most that I can share is that management and I had disagreements, especially on how I wanted to proceed and grow here.
Maybe a few of you might be unfamiliar with me, but I mentioned this close to when I debuted: that a lot of the reason why I started streaming was because I wanted to bring smiles and joy to people, especially those who have had sad or tough or bad days, or who were- maybe had negative feelings about stuff going on in their lives. I just feel like lately maybe that's not something that I can personally bring to people.
I guess it's also been a bit rough for me; I feel like there was a point (maybe a while ago) where I had also seriously considered ending streaming a while ago and I decided to keep going. I was actually really happy to- there was a lot of things I was able to experience because I did keep going, and maybe it changed my point of view a bit. I guess there were certain ways I wanted to move forward from here on and maybe it wasn't just something that aligned with management, and so... I guess you can say I am done blooming here.
But the reality is, I really really do wish that I could have stayed longer for you all. I feel like if I had things my way I would still be continuing here, because I do still feel like there are many many things that I would like to do and accomplish, and I feel like there is a lot more that I wish that we could do together. I am obviously really sad about not being able to do that, but I wanted you guys to know - to all the Rosebuds - that everything you make for me, every comment that you give me, whether- no matter what you create and no matter what you give to me, it's always meant more than life itself. I guess this is something I would have loved to do forever but I guess it's not how things are going to proceed, huh?
