The life of a Napling:
>Nimi stream soon
>reminded of the tweet...sharp pain in chest...sunk cost...too.....m-much...
>*sigh*
>'fuck it, I'm happy for her, this doesn't affect me I never had a chance in the first place she's still the same person and I'm glad she's happy'
>*click*
>no longer has to hide him or ensure he's silent/not in
>hear front door sounds in the background (probably him coming back or going out)
>hear him coughing and laughing
>hear footsteps and accidental knocks
>hear him cooking in their kitchen
>wondering what Nimi is really doing during idol meetings now she's come clean about her living situation
>having to think about what's she's going to do as soon as she ends the stream or what she did earlier in the day with him
>having to be respectful in chat and in the comments in regard to shipping for now it's a weird thing to do
>having to sit through her occasionally bringing up places she's traveled with her fiance and foods they've tried together and realizing all the other experiences she's discussed previously probably involved him, too
>realizing her manager was probably him all along
>having to accept that they're likely having unprotected sex to start a family and likely has his active sperms in her belly fighting over each other to reach your oshi's egg whilst she's streaming and you're sitting there a fucking virgin loser around the same age as her and her fiance/husband
>realizing that the 15th-20th of each month which used to be period hort cycle has stopped because she's likely pregnant already and it's why the marriage is being rushed so they can get married before having a child
>having to accept that she'll be away for multiple weeks or months and will always prioritize him and her family over (You)
>*sigh*
>*renews members*
