>>104395975I don't think you realistically can, can't speak for everyone though... I can say with confidence that the first 4 months after I discovered Hololive was the happiest time of my life, I would never exchange that for anything nor want to forget that, I've watched a couple of VTubers before and knew what it was but they were just like other streamers to me, just with a sexo anime girl model, but Hololive did something that made me not look the same way at it, VTubers there were different, as soon as I realized, the clips/VODs/streams was 90% of the stuff I was watching in my free time.
I started working out because I wanted to be better for my Oshi, I started to be more confident, my anxiety pretty much disappeared, it gave me so much life. I didn't even wanted to lewd the girls because if I did, I was disrespecting them, I even stopped having the need to masterbaiting, a fucking gooner like me. It's not like I was deluding myself that one of these girls will be my girlfriends one day, just thst interaction through the anime model was enough for me. But then, some fag on xitter posted something like "People getting upset that their Oshi plays games with a man don't understand that talents also have private life, and there are much more interesting things to do with men in private" or shit like that.
I'm not sure why, but it hurt me deeply, just the thought of my Oshi with some other dude is tearing my heart apart, it was 6 months of non-stop depression after that, it's better now, but I haven't recovered and I don't think I ever will, sometimes I still cry because of remembering how it was, I'm still in this hobby but it isn't what it used to be, I'm not as passionate as I was before, but it's certainly better and I at least feel happy watching them again. Not that anyone should give a shit about my life story or something.
