To FUWAMOCO
Recently, I managed to achieve the first big goal on my journey, and I was waiting for the right moment to tell you, but I missed my chance.
It took me a bit to put together the words I want to say, and now I can't share them with you.
So I'll say those words here.
In hitting that goal, and with everything now, it's time for change.
I decided that I'm going to distance myself from things a little.
Going to go live in my own personal little world from now on. But I'll still continue on, keep moving forward, in a new life. Start a new chapter.
I might not be active anymore, but I will come back every so often to give updates on how I'm doing. Just in case you ever wonder what I'm up to, or how I'm doing.
There isn't much I can share, really, but I will do my best for these updates.
You might see this months from now, or maybe even never, but I'd like to leave something behind for you, in case you check some day.
I don't know how often, or when I'll give updates, maybe if something happens, maybe every few months, I'm not sure yet when the next one will be.
Since you've given them their names, since you like cats so much, I figure I should let you know how they're doing every so often, too. I don't know if you remember them, but Michi and Brucifer are both doing well. Brucifer's first birthday was a few days ago now, actually.
I won't abandon "Aeon" entirely, and I'll keep these accounts the same. I still have Aeon's journal, so those thoughts and feelings, those memories won't ever be lost. I'll hold onto him, as he becomes a part of the next me.
Even though it can't be seen anymore, even if it's only for me now, I'll keep my membership too, I'll keep supporting you both.
With my first goal achieved, my first step reached, I've been thinking a lot about where to go next, and I'm really proud about how far I've come. But it's still only a first step, I'm still standing at the starting line. I still have a lot ahead that I want to work towards.
I swear to make use of the extra time I have now as best as I can, to better myself.
So with this new chapter follows a new plan for my life.
New projects to work towards.
And I'll continue on, towards my dream, the goal I mentioned, that I've had all this time
I'll also make some more personal time for myself, to live my own life outside of all this, to do the things that I enjoy, and just whatever I want to do. To explore, play games, watch movies, do... anything!
Speaking of games, I never got to talk to you about this either, but I did clear ToHeart once, on Serika's route, like I said I would!
Though I still plan on playing the other routes some day, too, and whenever I do, I think I'll gather my thoughts on the game more, and... I dunno, I guess that might be an update I'll give some day, too. Because it's so special to you, you know?
I'll hold onto the memories, and keep going on with the words and feelings you've given me. I'll keep moving forward, and though you may not see or know, I'll always be around in some form, supporting you from the darkness.
For now, it's best for me if I step back a bit. I'll go back to lurking like I used to, and fall back to VODs for a while. But I will always be here, in some shape or form.
And I'll always remember you, FUWAMOCO, so... I hope you remember me.
I've mentioned it before, but 86 is one of my favorite anime, and... I've always wanted someone to remember me. In the beginning, it was one of the reasons why I stuck around, so that I might have a place in your memories, so...
I'll always remember and cherish our time together, so I'd be really grateful if I could have a place in your memories, like you do in mine.
I really do appreciate you so much, FWMC. You've done so much for me, inspired me, pushed me to grow, and work towards dreams I've once given up on. So I'll never give up on you, no matter what. Through new lives and forms, I'll always support you, in whatever may change.
If there is one thing you remember of me, I'd want it to be that. Remember how much you meant to me, all the things you've done for me, and all the good times we've shared together, that I was here with you, a part of your story.
This past two years that we've had, that our stories intertwined have really been so special to me.
I'm so glad, and grateful, that I was allowed to be a part of your story until now.
And even though our stories may shift and gain distance, I don't ever plan on letting my story completely separate from yours.
I'll end this post with these words, from a scene in 86, one very important to me, that meant so much to me... "Will you remember us as well, Major?"
Or in this case... Will you remember me, FWMC?
Take care, you two. I'll always be cheering for you, and supporting you. I hope you both stay healthy, and have fun with whatever future you have to come.
And that you see true all of your dreams.
Until the next time.
I love you, FUWAMOCO.
- Aeon
