Daily reminder than unless you’re a Chad or a fellow woman, your oshi likely despises you. Women flat out despise unattractive men, even more so if they’re autistic. They literally hate any man they wouldn’t want to fuck, like not just on a sexual or romantic level but on a neutral, platonic level as well. Your oshi hates all the unattractive male fans she has but pretends she doesn’t to maintain popularity. That is all.