>>106040887You don't know what it feels like to have intrusive thoughts. Yeah we know we have real friends but I have to literally tell myself that all the time because my mind is telling me they might just fake it, or I might not deserve them, or sometimes I just leap through ten steps forcing myself to associate whatever thought I have with something negative.
The meds don't help with this, they at best make me emotionally dampened, which is why I don't take them. The only way for me to solve any issue is to think through it and tell myself it's my brain, not me, that's being my own anti. And it's fucking exhausting.
