>>106707627this is very hard for me to talk about so I apologize if I don't do a great job at it
it happened to me about 3 years ago
she was a cute and funny vtuber that I watched regularly because her streams always cheered me up after coming out of the wagecage
I was active in chat and in her discord
I thought we got along and everything was great
then one day she messaged me privately on discord asking about work and what music I like, that kind of stuff
I thought I was lucky to get to chat with a vtuber I really liked about my interests and complain about work
after a few weeks she asked me where I lived
I told her and she said she didn't live that far from me
she asked me if I wanted to go over to drink some beer and listen to classic rock at her place
I of course said yes, we made plans and I took a week off from work to drive over
once I got to her house she greeted me and asked me to go in
I should have seen the warning signs right there and ran, she had a lecherous smile on her face
but I just thought she was autistic and just trying to do a normal smile, told myself it was endearing
I wish I could have seen it
once inside her house she handed me a beer, a binder filled with rock CDs, and invited me to sit on her la-z-boy
I was comfortably looking through her collection but before I knew it she pulled down her panties and stuffed them in my mouth
unable to scream or struggle (I would have spilled the beer and dropped and broken the rock CDs if I tried) she got on top of my and started touching my penis
I don't know what happened next, my memory of it is gone
next thing I remember was being naked on her bed crying while she lied next to me smoking a cigarette naked as well
I looked for my clothes and ran to my car and drove back home, crying the entire way there
I haven't watched her streams or interacted with her community since then
I've never said what happened or who it is because of the fear of what she would do to me
but if you think you know who I am and who I'm talking about, that is why I left
