Gura was not only stressed at performing at live events, but she also started to question herself whether this is still as fun as it was at the beginning. Gura was left alone with her thoughts, and she could only reassure herself, that she needs to make the right choice for the better, especially since almost all of her friends from Hololive started to leave the company, or atleast planning to at the time. Gura didn’t necessarily felt sad about them leaving, but instead she felt jealousy as in: “It must feel good for my friends not waking up with stress and anxiety anymore.” Maybe her graduating as the face of HololiveEN wasn’t as easy, or she put her fans first. She endured as much stress as she could, if it meant to make someone’s day atleast a little bit better, even if she wasn’t feel like this was good for her mental health.
Jealousy could also most likely indicate that people were jealous of her being this popular in such a short time, while she didn’t really ask for this. She could hear, see, and feel all the mean things people ever said to her, for them it wasn’t enough that she was a Vtuber trying to have fun, people wanted to know WHO exactly is having fun.
