>>107812855The wound of abandonment
I got worse.
A vtuber with the powers of a witch who loved me but then tortured me because she projected everything as a betrayal due to her obsession with me and not loving herself with an abandonment wound.
Every time when she said she loves me the reality of that was she did not love herself, thus me receiving torture when she focused that energy onto me.
Everything starts with your relationship with your parents and their emotional unavailability.
You have to revisit that past and this belief and become an emotionally available parent for yourself and change your habits when you feel lonely.
Instead of searching for love to hide your pain of not being loved by your parents as a child face that pain and release it, then do for yourself what your parents didn't and take better care of yourself.