>>109540013I'm not a VTuber myself, but I've been in the space long enough to understand the general do's and don'ts. As for feeling like you're lacking, that's a very common and completely normal feeling to have. There's not much in the way of advice that anyone can give to make you feel better about that, but I would try to use that as fuel to improve yourself. Don't compare yourself to large and successful creators, and, instead, use them for inspiration. Try not to be a perfectionist, because you'll never be satisfied with your work if you are. Of course, I can say all of this, but it's up to you to actually change your mindset. That's no easy change to make, and I would encourage talking to someone about it instead of bottling feelings up. Australia has free mental health services if you ever need to take that route.
I would caution against making a big list of hobbies you want to try. It's very common in many spaces for people to be stuck in a loop of researching instead of actually doing (drawing and learning languages are two big examples). In this case, make sure you're actually going out and trying the hobbies themselves.
As for you viewership, it would be good for you to know just how many people are in the same boat as you. According to a reddit thread (so take it with a grain of salt), you are in the top 6% of streamers (on Twitch at least) if you have more that 5 concurrent viewers. This means that 94% of streamers have 5 or less viewers at any given time. I'm not saying this to make it feel like growing an audience is hopeless, but you need to know that you may be streaming to nobody for a while. You need viewers to get more viewers, so this will probably be the hardest point of growth for you.
People say not to post here due to the general toxic nature of the board. This place is rife with groomers and antis who don't actually enjoy VTubers as a hobby and only post for the sake of (You)s and stirring up drama. That said, there are some genuine people still left on the board, so you can glean good advice from here. I just wouldn't try to maintain a presence on /vt/. Try to focus more on your VTuber persona on socials. Engagement is your friend, so try to post about streams, your model, art, games, etc. instead of personal woes. Consider making an alt account for venting an whatnot. It would be good to see a refernce sheet for you character and maybe a streaming shedule. Fan art is always nice, and consistent - or, at least predictable - streams help with retention.