>To the dear ohmies whom it may concern
>I originally accepted the invitatation to join Phase Connect, mainly because I wanted to have genmates. I'm not good at asking people how to collab, so I thought it would be easier this way. I was hesitant about being placed in JP but agreed. Once it was clear my audience was more english, I asked for guidance and was told to lean into it. The problem was this made it hard to have collabs with my genmates, because my regular viewers would tune out if content wasn't in english. Our clashing stream times also made it diffucult. I asked to be transferred in hopes of feeling less alone but was told circumstances wouldn't allow it.
>At first I tried to connect with other talents, I was very social in our work server, and talked to and played games with other members almost daily.
>In May of 2024 something happened and I muted most channels and began to self isolate. I took solace in the fan discord but eventually told I was posting too much.
>Things began to pile up, by July of 2025 I started to feel I was not mentally well enough to stream, I didn't feel safe alone so I went to visit family, at the time it helped a lot. Being offline put a major cause of my stress in the distance.
>Early november I was excited to come back from my hiatus, I was regaining my energy to stream, I had just released a video I spent hours on, I was writing down ideas and prepared all the assets for another musical, I had purchased and rigged custom assets for Clara's return. Things still hadn't been addressed but I was hopeful.
>On November 7th a conversation led to me realizing that things would never change, and I had to leave.
>These past two years have been really hard for me, I now know how much my mental and physical health were impacted, there were some things I knew in the moment, but looking back and realizing how much worse it was than I initially thought was painful. I noticed something was wrong as early as February 2024 but it took me much longer to stop blaming myself and finally put the pieces together.
>What kept me going through everything was the ohmies, although I was less active I was still watching over the discord and hashtags. When I decided to graduate I stopped caring about the rules imposed on me. And watching movies and playing Runescape together helped more than you know. There are a few other people to thank but I won't name them, they know who they are, thank you.
>Some of you may be wondering why I chose not to become a Phase Citizen, I was asked, merch would be passive income... there are things that money can't buy. Though I'm sorry to the fans that vods will no longer be available, I hope you understand that this was the best decision for me.
>I went through a volatile mix of emotions. But the closer we got to the day of my gradation, the more at peace I became, I have every right to be angry, and some days I am, but I'm not wasting my energy anymore. I'm sad to have to say goodbye to the ohmies but goodbye is never forever.
>Overall even though I'm crying today isn't a sad day, its a day to celebrate, maybe that's hard for you to understand right now. As the roman poet Horace once said "time will bring to light whatever is hidden" now I'm shaking. Um yeah I do want to. I want to showcase a tweet of mine and I apologise for the flashbang because its not my own screenshot.
>I don't regret this tweet (image), its my belief that its your duty to reel in members of your community when you see them being harmful to others, silence is complicity. The ohmies are as wonderful and open as they are because that is the standard I held them too. Ohmies thank you for helping me build a welcoming community, of people from all walks of life, many of you sent me messages about how much this community helped you come out of your shells and be more confident, you are that community, I may have guided it in a certain direction but you are the backbone, be proud of yourselves.
>Some things to remember, you know who you are and no ones narrative can change that, always do good, even when it'd be easier or more profitable not to. Now more than ever its important to have community to stick together and I'm late to say it, but happy black history month.
>Dan Savage said we buried our friends in the morning, protested in the afternoon and we danced all night, and it was the dance that kept us in the fight, cause it was the dance we were fighting for.
>So Ohmies if I could figure out how to do anything lets dance. (cue karaoke and dancing)
