>>110032170Hey anon, I hope you're holding up ok man. IDK if I'm too comfortable sharing my own experiences but I *think* I kinda know how you feel cuz I had something similar happen to me (and I also had a dream where I got attacked). Its really funny how your mind overfocuses on some silly detail to take your attention of the traumatic action right??? In my case I kept looking at a bit of the room wall that we didn't paint right and I kept thinking "Man, really gotta do a second pass on the paint. Did we use too much water???" lmfao.
Beforehand I apologize if I end up saying something dumb... Ok, first of all please remember that your feelings are valid no matter what other people might try and say to diminish you. There's a difference between a physical and a psychological event, and sometimes a psychological event can unfold without any necessary stimuli from the physical realm (the inverse also happens but its not relevant to this talk) and it is the mental processing of the experiences in our psyche that determine how much something would affect or traumatize us. Incidentally different paths of life and psychological strenghtening can make it so that two people can digest the same event with vastly different levels of resilience... like a normal civilian and a combat veteran traversing a survival situation for example.
All that to say that even if nothing happened in the objective physical world, something *did* happen to you in your own heart. And therefore it is totally valid and understandable that you might feel uncomfortable about the guy who's the physical reminder of your dream symbol/character at least for a while. I'd even wager that Ruze would be one of the first person to want you to feel accepted in your feelings of discomfort or grossness and for you to take some time to sort out your own stuff. Life is meant for you to be happy and comfortable and free, and the road to that doesn't look the same to everyone. If you have to take a step back or stumble, even if it was because of something "illogical" like just a dream then thats just the path written for you or sum. Ruze will still be there whenever you feel comfortable to check him out someday, even if that someday is *months* in the future or whatever. Don't think that this is something you "need to get over" by a specific timeline, give yourself to permission to do so only when you are ready.
Lmfao sorry for all this wall of text I got kinda carried away. Apologies for being kinda cringe, its just that I'm cursed with XY chromosomes and when I saw that guy lowk giving you shit for the dream TVtropes thing I really didn't want you to think that all men would act so dismissive about it (I don't think that guy had necessarily bad intentions btw). I think I can speak for a majority of male chuubas in that if we see a fan, or woman, or anyone who's going through pain we'd love nothing more than to be able to provide them with the comfort & safety & patience & knowledge they need to live a truly free and full life.
love ya anon and I'm manifesting lotsa healing, happy days, and joyful streams with your oshi for your future.
