Your oshi will never care about you. You are nothing but a walking, faceless resource to her. Stop giving her money and start investing in yourself. You are on the road to self-destruction. The age of pure vtubers is gone and it is replaced with vile people who only care about making money and exploiting off of lonely people. Go back to anime, at least the girls aren't real and don't have evil motivations behind the avatar. save yourself. bee free