Where do you think it lies? Do you think being schizo is what makes the difference for some people, in the sense that either they have one that you think no one could possibly reach, or that they simply don't have one at all? I'll document my experiences so far
>see a /v/ thread about anons complaining Kiara was gonna do a follow up to a Tales of Arise stream
>check out Kiara's stream, come shit post her
>make a post about a former big youtuber gone vtuber known to be menhera
>start watching clips
>watch some Kiara streams now and then, think this is just some dumb hobby to waste time with
>before long i actually masturbate to a chuuba, which to me was the point of no return
>"oh, those were just sexual feelings, i see the chuuba and feel nothing, time to move on"
>find a chuuba i find really, really cute
>want to interact with her desperately, superchat her
>sub and member
>feel bad anytime i miss a stream, start having real feelings for this chuuba which have kinda died down
>start watching another chuuba, she reads my comments a lot even tho i'm a grey
>donated to her for the first time today, considering membering because i love her energy
I think sending a supa or subbing is the point of no return. I was so naive thinking masturbating to a chuuba was the point of no return. I wish I could back to that stage.
Keep in mind this has developed since mid July of this year to present day. Shit's crazy.