>>13080984Yeah, it do be like that sometimes. Having her noticing you feels really good and you end up wanting more of that. I draw fanarts whenever I can and post them on twitter mostly because I enjoy drawing even if I suck at it, but I'd be lying if I said I don't expect her to like it or that I don't feel sad when she just ignores it
which happens with every drawing. There isn't anything I can do other than either getting gud or giving up on this "attention" all together. I'm fully aware this can be self-destructive but I'm retarded and can't help it, I always worry about when is the best time to post stuff or feel nervous when she starts liking fanarts, hoping "this time will be different". Anyway, sorry for the blogpost.
