>>14954699I already said, i just can't do it. It never works. I can never stick to a schedule, i can never commit to anything. When i was 20 i tried taking Japanese lessons at the local university. I didn't study anything, so when the first test came i didn't know how to answer anything. I just got up in the middle of the test and walked away from the classroom, and never came back. I tried lifthing with a personal trainer. It went well for the first month, but then he increased the regimen and it got too hard, so i just never came back to the gym again. I tried being a youtuber, but after 1.5 years of posting videos weekly i didn't get anything, nobody even commented. It was like i was making videos for noone, so i stopped. I can't do anything. I'm a failiure. Its an intrinsic component of who i am, and i can't change it. Maybe it was how i was raised, i don't know. I hate sucessful people, but i also hate people like you who think its so easy, that you just have to do something and it works out. It doesn't work out. For some people it never works out, so there's no point in trying. Also i need to reiterate that i hate Vox for making me feel bad, usually i'm content in my mediocre stupor, but sometimes people like him have to show up, invade something i like and remind me that i'm a failiure. I wish he didn't exist.
