>>19109674It's never too late to change and become the person you were supposed to be.
As long as you are still alive you have the power to materialize your dreams into the world through the power of your beliefs.
You likely had a similar event in your life during your childhood which you can't let go of and repeated itself multiple times in your life.
You need to revisit your past, imagine the traumatic events again to release the accumulated emotions, and then imagine a better outcome to the bad situations that would have made your life better and improved it.
The past doesn't exist anymore, only your memories of it exist, and you have the power to change them, because their role is to help you in life by serving as a reference to your mindset and decision making process.
If you have too many bad memories you will have a negative mindset which will have a negative impact on your life.