was a lie. It doesn't exist. I think I figured it out. It's the first yab. The only yab.
TOUCH GRASS.
That's how it all began, and it is how it all ends. Chuubas are training wheels for life, be it for how to relate to other people, to women specifically, or to get an idea of pretend girlfriends. Every chuuba, whether she means it or not, mentions wanting her fans to be better. To overcome adversity. As the COVID era seems to be dying down and we enter post-COVID world, I realize my growth as a person. I entered this hobby depressed, lonely, a NEET, feeling like the world was ending and I would at least try to cancel out everything by watching cute anime girls playing video games and chatting with me. I jumped from girl to girl, before settling on Marine. Now, nearly 2 years later, I have a job, I have my own place, I have friends I frequent, I work out. Time is more and more scarce. I have bills, money is tighter since I no longer leech off my parents. I still browse this board, I still watch clips and Marine's health issues have made the weaning process hurt more, but it also sped it up. I wish her and every vtuber all the best, but I think this is where I hang my hat. I'll always remember this as the most interesting period of my life.