>>22180331It was a time in college, where I was swarmed with homework and student council duties. I was alone in my apartment with all things piled up against me. My internet broke a few weeks ago for 10 days and haven't gotten my exam and just after the internet was restored the School Intramurals started and I had to facilitate a tournament while releasing and recording funds that is used because I'm the treasurer. Still haven't done my exams, projects, and the 4th quarter just started and I'm still behind 3rd grading. I lie in bed felt my whole body was getting heavier and heavier, then in my feed I saw a vtuber, a GFE vtuber. I didn't know japanese aside from the few phrases I learned from watching anime. But while listening to her asmr, Even without understanding it. I can feel like I was being pampered, I was being loved. It was pathetic I know. Still, being alone with no one to tell and comfort me about my problems because everyone is dealing with their own. I felt I had something to cry to, to lean to with all the things I've dealt. Even though she probably can't hear me. Even when it's just an illusion. I felt I have someone who actually loves me and cares for me. Like a fuzzy cloak being wrapped around on my freezing shoulder, a kindling flame that made my cold recluse heart tender. GFE might all be fake but what I felt during those wearying times, it is real and that's all that matters. That's how I got into Vtubers.
