>>22562905I'll give a more honest answer than this probably deserves, but what I really find exhausting is how her inconsistency influences just talking about her content
I want to be involved, want to be proud of her, want to shill her to other people by recommending streams, or songs, or showing how great of a person she is by supporting her indie friends or lower subbed Holos/Homos
but when I see her get into a twitter fight with a rando, suck up to bigger channels for clout while her indie friends wait for a year for a single interaction, fail to deliver on a project or clearly mess up preparations, when an anticipated music release turns just okay compared to her past ones, when her gaming streams don't really have a hook outside of 'cute girl play game', it does fucking suck
she's only human at the end of the day and all that is forgivable, but when it happens often enough it just paints all discussion in a shitty light
as she said, I really, really want to be able to say 'that's my oshi' under all circumstances, but it's so fucking hard when you are cringing at her at the same time
