I hate vtubing. I hate the cognitive dissonance of trying to convince yourself that your oshi is really how she presents herself when deep down you know she's just like all the others. I hate having to "share" a woman with thousands of other chumps. I hate knowing no matter how clever, caring or funny I try to make my chat messages she'll never acknowledge my existence unless I fork over cold hard cash. I hate seeing girls that probably had good intentions at first and just wanted to make some friends slowly become cynical and corrupted by greed and dipping their toes into gfe shit. I hate how everytime I try to quit I'm left with a gaping hole in my life that nothing else can fill.